a lot of things happened to me this past 6months. I’ve been fulfilled, happy and been hurt. After being happy with what’s going on between the two of us, another trial.  And as what i’ve been telling you, I will never let go. Never.

For the next few days, weeks, months, I will focus on my career and i know the consequences of that. If it means that we will not see each other, then I will try my very best to make time for you.  I will just continue in loving you. People may react negatively with this but I don’t mind for I know this will make me happy. Maybe not now, but in the long run, I know. And I vow, I will blog everyday about us (anything and everything about the sun) until the day that we are both fine and everything will go back to normal ( you know what i mean).

I know we have have different personalities and attitude but I hope and I pray that we can work on this. I will continue on loving you and will always be your partner.

I know after all this tears and sacrifices, everything will be fine and i am looking forward on that day.

“Love may not set you free but it will keep you alive”

I am questioning myself… how can I continue now? My life became so routinary… a planted journal…so many times of being a ventriloquist puppet. Its about time to regain my skeleton and be able to stand on my own.

I’ve learned a lot.. but learning stops here.. learning stop when it starts to hurt. I am emotionally wreck, physically tired but I can feel the sudden relief… I am still alive. I am not blaming my misfortune on you, never I consider it is… but to continue with you is what I believe is misfortune, to me and to you. I’ve seen the sign and I had your permission and acceptance… thank you for letting me borrow your wings before you push me off the clif.

Its ironic that we already have the solution but the formula is missing. I was loved, been taken care of, was never betrayed but deprived. When jealousy is present, heart turns to wood. When there is envy, there is competition. Happiness should not be bounded within two souls but binded souls must be shared with great hope and good foundation of trust. We are too busy finding the key, without us knowing that the door is open.

Nothing of you can help me heal all the wounds, not even a piece so I am begging. This is not easy… this is the hardest decision of my life, the most popular the happiest and the most bleeding one. Maybe the pain that I am feeling now is just a dot on what you are experiencing.. I am SORRY. Like a shout at the top of my lungs. THANK YOU, words that i will not fail to say every passing day, for being a part of my life and for all the memorie shared. I might regret this, but I might regret not doing this as well. Someone has to give in, someone needs to sacrifice. Our partnership had to much carbon, Oxygen is what we need.

Nobody Dies a VIRGIN. LIFE & LOVE fuck’s us all.

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Now, it was time to prepare
To face another day
For some reason
Just before leaving
I returned to the bedroom
To look once more at your name
But it too was gone

GOODBYE …

“I was the one who loved you most, but between us you lost more…  I can love someone the way I loved you, but you will never be loved again the way that I did….” – gwaniah

Today someone asked
If I would like to be able to go back
And change all the things that had gone wrong
In my Life
And although at first
The idea seemed rather appealing
I quickly realized
That the good and the bad are so intertwined
That I couldn’t change part
Without changing the whole…

Your love is a constant source of
strength that I draw from
And it is something that has
blessed me in so many ways

All that you have been to
me cannot be expressed
It is something only the
heart can explain
I live in the warm embrace of
your love each and every day
And I want you to know that
nothing is more precious to me

I never want to know life,
without you in it…

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I’ve decided to install Love. Can you guide me through the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer:Well, I’m not very technical, but I think I’m ready- What do I do first? Tech Support: The first step is to open y our Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now.
Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running ?

Customer: Let’s see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem. Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off?

Customer: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades. Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, ‘ Error – Program not run on external components’ What should I do?

Tech Support: Don’t worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart.
In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the ‘My Heart’ directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

Customer: Thank you, God.

God/Tech Support: You’re Welcome, Anytime.

True enough for me. For the past months, I’ve been wrecked. I’ve been down. I’ve been mean. I’ve been wandering around, trying to look for someone who can love me and take care of me. But then again everything seems not right because I always end up in the losing end. —-Not until you came. It wasn’t easy for us, especially on your end. And both of us can attest to that. Thanks to you for not giving up. You awaken my senses that once has been in deep hybernation for quite a long time.
I never thought It will be this good to be in love once again, especially if it’s you that I have. I love you for being you, everything about you.

I love you for being honest at all times.

I love you for always reminding me how special i am inspite of the fact that I’m not.

I love the way you make me blush.

I love you for everything that you are and i will not be able to finish this blog if I’ll write all the things that makes me love you more each passing day.

I had the same feeling before but this time I know it’ll gonna be all right. I know and I can feel it. I know, you’re my perfect match in this imperfect world that we live in. *aww, cheesy!*

Thanks for making me happy and for making me feel good everyday. One big favor though, please don’t let me go?

become a better person, and not be so

stuborn about everything, I know and

I realized that you are the most important

person in my life and that if I continue like

this, I may just lose the love we share.

Pls take me back..

Mend this broken heart..

I will love again

Though my heart is breaking, I will
love again
Stronger than before
I will love again
Even if it takes a lifetime to get over you
Heaven only knows, I will love again

People never tell you
The way they truly feel
I would die for you gladly
If I knew it was for real
So if all this talk sounds crazy
And the words don’t come out right
Does it really matter
If it gets me through this night

If I’m true to myself, nobody else can take the place of you
But I’ve got to move on, tell me what else can I do

I will love again

One day I know, I will love again

You can’t stop me from loving again,

breathing again

Feeling again

I know, one day, I’ll love again

Regrets and remorse are what I feel. Even now – it’s been 2 days since we parted, but I still do care and have love for you, no matter what. We  have had times which, no one else could ever replace, neither your place nor my place. I have lost my special place in your heart, but at least I’ve carved special memories of us in which we were first loves for each other.

If time traveled back, I would seek for all the chances to attain you back. I would go after and follow you no matter where you go, for you I would swim the deepest ocean, climb up to the highest mountain, and for you… I’d pick the brightest star.

Duane, papabear my halo pls come back.. pls..